Hallo! You may call me Shiro ^^ tis ish just a little introduction of myself ^^
One Day I shall make my own LJ Layout... but right now...this will do XD heh ^^

Here is thy list of thy other accounts:

Deviantart/Sheezyart/My Otaku: dementedmonkey
Gaia Online: Aoko Seiji

You may go ahead and add me... if you want me to add you...ask first ^^; and i may or may add you...depending on who you are ^^;

Which is more important, Love or Friendship? I guess, the answer to that is different for most people.  I supposed it depends on one’s priority. What is the best way to answer that question?  Look inside yourself and ask, which is more important to you. Would you sacrifice your friend just to get that Love you cherished or would you rather throw your Love away if it’s to save what little friendship you have left?  Life is full of choices and this is just one of them.  It’s a sad reality. But then again that’s what makes up life. Choices.  It stinks I know, but that’s reality.  God gave us free will.  People fight for it.  It’s the freedom to decide.  But sometimes, don’t you wish somebody should make the choices for you.  So you wont have to blame yourself every time you make bad decisions in life.  It is regrettable, but most often than not, you cant go back from a decision you have made.  It’s not like there’s a reset button for life. Life is not a video game. But don’t you wish that it were? Wouldn’t it be convenient if you made a decision, regretting it and all you have to do is go back to your last saved data and start all over again?  Ahahaha, wouldn’t that be great? But not only that its not possible, its actually cowardice.  Yes, I guess… it is cowardice.  Since you are just running away from the responsibility of your decisions.  I guess I’m a coward too then.  Oftentimes when I get hurt or did something I regret, I throw away everything, wipe the slate clean and start all over again. Even if what I’m throwing away is something I really love or cherished or something I truly enjoy doing.  Even if it’s someone I really love.  If you won’t work with me, I’d rather not have you in my life anymore.  I guess I’m not really resetting.  It’s more like abandoning.  I rarely go back from a decision that I have made, I’m stubborn by nature. But, if a decision doesn’t work for me, I abandon it.  I supposed, what I do is nothing short of cowardice too. Since, I’m refusing to fight for it. It’s a rather nasty habit of mine. If I know it’s bad, why do it?  Its cause, I don’t want to be reminded.  Even if it’s something I really like doing, if it reminds me of something painful it wont be as fun as it used to. I wouldn’t be able to do it.  At least not the way I use to.  I don’t usually forget…unfortunately for me, which is why I have the habit of removing things that will remind me of it. That is my reason for abandonment.  I don’t want to remember anymore. I am optimistic by nature, but in order for me to move on, I must wipe everything clean.  To see the future that lies ahead, I must clear my path first. I don’t want to be stuck in a past with painful memories. I do not need them. Why would I succumb to a painful situation? Screw that, I do not need it.  We do not have unlimited time. And sure do not want to waste mine.           

 

 

Why am I saying all of this?  If one day, I started to ignore you completely, or if I suddenly leave with little or without say.  It means I’m removing you from my life. Don’t bother coming back.  I know its harsh, but its either that or I kill myself.  You can try and fix it, but I warn you, I rarely budge.

Tags: decisons, emo, friendship, love
Current Mood: sad

So yeah XD Merry Christmass Everybody XD

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Beware of emo XD

Im lonely T___T i didnt get to see or talk to .... "said person" ... today T___T

sigh... work again 2mrw.... sigh.....

i miss you... you stupid person you T_________________T

waaaaah

anyway... what haver i been doing?

Being emo lol
Being OC, yes Cosplay is taking over =.=
LOL
expensive though but its fun...intoxicating... camera still hates me though...i hate him too XD
hehehehe XD

i want my doll T__________T  i swear this year... i will make sure i get the doll that i wanted T__T
BF Special Jerome XD  http://bluefairyint.com/shop/step1.php?number=108

must have T_________T

lol

my boy will be spoiled i swear XD XD XD XD XD

Tags: emo
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Johnny Rzeznik - i'm still here

The aftermath....

lolz

so what was last saturday.. (well yesterday) is was the Anime Cssplay Catwalk show... yes.. another costrip lolz XD XD XD we finished around 77 cosplayers? in 30 minutes wahahahhahaha XD XD XD (Rero is number 65... im just the prop yo XD XD XD XD )

lolz XD

Kidding aside it was fun XD we got a little soemthing off of it.. i got a snitch (the quidditich ball XD ) (ji-chan did too )... and we refer to it as.. our soon to be timcanpi hwe he he he he he he XD

yes were evil

well you know the usual... annoyances that comes with the cosplaying thing.. and the usual photos and craps XD (oh for photos and other crap... visit my multiply.. dont worry its set to public XD http://veruaffe.multiply.com )


anyway.. what was interesting for me... That time wasnt the cosplay per se.. it was .. the way i was dressed XD no no .. not the cosplay costume... just normal Shiro XD

cause i had an haircut and its short.. not uber short.. i have shorter believe me XD but its eough to make me look like a guy XD XD XD XD

well EA games ( work for them btw XD ) gave us shirts.. and theyre were big ones XD (well its a s size..but those people who know.. knows im, you know small XD both size and built)

and they dont look good in jeans...

so.. i went to work and to the event
wearing baggy pants... rubber shoes... and loose shirts.. with my ear clamps and my kunai/shuri necklace XD hell yeah XD XD D XD that guy in Jollibee.. called me a "sir" XD XD XD XD

wahahahah XD XD XD XD XD XD no really.. i spent most of my work day and cosplay event with people callng me "'Tol", "Pare", "Boy", "Totoy" ahahahahahaha it was amusing XD hell yeah XD

I havent been dressibng like this since forever T__T i missed it XD XD XD XD That EA games shirt gave me the chance XD i dunno for some reason... i have been dressing.. sorta girly girl.. well atleatsmy defintion of girl fashion ever since..i dunno.. ^^; maybe ever since i had a boyfriend (well ex now XD )? i guess. i tired dressing up as a guy when we were still together one time.. and it doenst look good.. so afterwards i didnt do it again ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

and that was years ago o.O

omg thst long? i miss it T______________T

Plus the fact that was .. somewhat bad trip.. and i was swearing exessively XD the look did me good XD
One of my friends was like... T__T "dont do that again" hahahahXD gomen gomen XD
i pormise if were together i wont dress up like that XD ( just at work mostly XD )


omg work ahahahahahahahahha
you should see soem of their faces when i walked in XD XD XD XD XD wahahahahahah *rofl*
since ive been going to work all dressed up mostly...
XD ties..booths, black crosses, all black outfits.. yes i know im insane....but still like  a girl... and then i enter like that.. with my back pack...smiling... XD XD XD XD

im amused XD



OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  im an effing boy again XD Hell yeah XD

Tags: boy, cosplay
Current Location: Our House
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood

Expect another aftermath next week LOLOLOL

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anyway.. so yeah...

dont know what event this is? go here http://www2.mydestiny.net/cosplay.htm

ji's info network is so goood LOL hahahaa

anyway.. Ji decided since it was last minute to put together the old D. Gray-man group (we atleast most of it) and add new members XD
there were orignally 11 of us... 3 cant come... 1 of us is cosplaying another character but will join the photoshoot and 2 more got added^^ (yeah we planned to have a photoshoot after..since we intended it to be a Cos-trip*, tripping lang mga ngets XD )

*Cos-trip = a term use by Filipino cosplayers to signify that were only cosplaying for fun... for the heck of it and junk XD

well... the thing is.... let's just say we ok XD (for the benefit of collectivity....dont react YOU TWO! ) LOL

We didnt know we were going to be interviewed T__T AND ON CAM
waaaaaaahhh T__T twice too T_________T one on .. the office thigny ounge area whatever.. the otehr on stage
bith on came

>.<""""""

it was a small cosplay event i mean really small
our group of 9 took half of the contestants wahahahahahah XD XD X D XD XD XD
we didnt win (of course.. the LOTR guy would win LOLOL) but we got alot of compensation (no not monteary) i dont think i want to discuss teh other one at the momment ^^;

But.. during the photoshoot.. 2 proffessional photographers volunteered to take our shots FOR FREE o.O

i mean OMG .. as in a real photoshoot o.O

WAAAAAAAAAH so so shocked XD XD XD XD XD

over all its one balanced day XD XD XD XD for me...

ji-chaaan, everyone sorry about snapping T_____________T

although.. im really sad that Jei got sick T_________T sorry Jei... T______________T *hugs* feel better girl~!!! ^^

thanks for all the help Shin~! XD

Ash and Angel!!!! My hairstylist!!!! thank you for helping me too~!!

Cyen!! so sorry about your phone!!! thank you thank you ^^ and to your friend too!!

Joey!!! pics heheheeh XD XD XD XD XD dont worry about your stuffs!! my bro hates me for it but i can manage LOLOOL

JR~! heheh gomen gomen...i called you stupid..i was pissed sorrrrryyy T_______T sorry about askign your friend too T_______T

Ji-chaaaan~! theyd kill you someday XD XD XD

Reia~!! so glad you can make it~!!


^^

Current Mood: accomplished

^^ if you added me in LJ i apologize for the double entries.. well the other one was kinda private so ^^;

haha emoing..instead of celebrating XD

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Yesterday's Ame Matsuri.. i had fun ^^ eventhough... i only slept less than two hours the night before the event.. i still manage to stay awake...hahah XD XD XD well with that amount of noise? whod be able to sleep in that o.O;

Anyway...My group cosplayed again.. shinji seems to be enjoying cosplaying and had dragged me along..3 times (in a row) already o.O Met new people while preparing the cosplay.. saw old friends again ^^ met with friends...met new people at the event.. people getting my friendster.. people taking pics of us o.O
it was amusing and annoying. i mean we were only walking .. (as a group) and people keep asking for pics o.O i think..it took us about 30 minutes to get to where we were going o.O
waiting was annoying!!!! i mean.. we had to escape the clutches of shinji so we can watch the individual cosplays!... (cause group cosplays are set after individuals..and we cant get out of the lobby area T__T)

oh and my group seems to love to be under the fan XD

our costumes were ... =.=... HOT i mena not hot hot.. i mean.. temperature hot ^^;
But i like pur costumes...

Oh ...we cosplayed... Vampire Knights..im Sayori Wakaba.. Day class..if you dont know what it is go wiki it XDXDXD
Since.. alot of people dont know the series XD XD XD XD XD

Shinji seems to love.. to choose groups that (1) isnt maisntream yet (2.) noone has done it yet ... well id dotn mind.. i do not wnat to cosplay as a characetr tahts already been done yet =.=;


hahaha
links to our pics:
Too Bad Ruka (jei-chan) wanstthere

Jei;s album

Tags: cosplay
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: FOR: zuuto

sigh...

ok so now... it begins again... the cycle of "friendship"...

have you ever experience this?...

you met a new friend.. enjoyed each others company...had fun together... and then... here comes an old friend.. introduced to your new friend.. new friend and old friend get together.. happy... of course theyre your friends
... but then they leave you all alone...


why does this always happend to me T__T

i'm tired of this...no really ... i am ...

im worried about alot of things... and now im depressed again T__T this stinks..and its almost christmas too.. sigh T__T my life hates me...

move on?
yeah... thats always the path i take... but but... where to?
to another situation that id be crying about?

i knew this wont last... i tried not to be too attached... but im crying again.. this is so sad T__T

im insane i know...

typing again in LJ.. where i know no one reads... ahahah ...

sorry emoing... im just depressed T___T


why cant i be happy...

my happiness is always just a facade ....

Current Location: house
Current Mood: sigh

*sighs*


Okay, well... after that work and crap...(and getting sick.. XD LOL )

I finally have work... well i still have contract signing and Training...but im practically in

I should be happy no?

well yeah...i guess... i hould be.. i mean.. i bought a new ear clamp to celebrate.. (i ate pizza too! XD ) and send an sms to my mom.. and my bro had inofrm me shes been calling to see if i got home yet ^^;;; i guess she IS happy for me.. ^^ Hahaha.. well i should too..i mean.. i want this job.. i kinda need it...

but

I dunno, im worried

During this interview it made me realize alot of things

I always thought i knew about all sort of stuffs.. i pride myelf with that..b ut .it tunrs out.. i just knew a little of all sort of stuffs..

what good is that
yes, its true.. my interests has a wide range of variety.. i like this and that.. but.. i find out (the hard way) that its not always a good thing..well maybe its never really a good thing...

I need to learn to focus on one thing... and right now...i need to focus on my work

Im really worries.. its not just this realization im worried about..its because im worried about if i may be able to do a good job over this work..this thing i put myself into ^^;;;; I dunno i feel a bit pressured..

maybe because i have no idea.. really no idea.. what im supposed to do ... its scary.. really.. the first time i had a real full time job... i wasnt really ... burdened by this.. cause i knew my mom had a job.. i was just doing it for the heck of it... sure why not they say... but at the momment..knowing my present situation..i cant really afford to play around like i did before...i cannot also waste moeny just like that...my mom... is growing old.. i know eventualy we would need to look for work.. i dunno i supposed eventhough im at this age..im still acting like a child.. so all this came to me as a shock...


sigh sigh...

T___T i need to study!!!


study some more... learn about new vid cards and otehr junk.... sigh... i wanted to be a game developer but...sigh... im screwed really T__T

Tags: emo
Current Location: Home...
Current Mood: T__T worried
Current Music: Lunar 2's bg ^^;

みなさん、こんにちは!

そうええ, Shiro ここに再度。
私の日本語を許しなさい。私は非常によくない。
私はしかし練習したいと思う。

hmm, 私の姉妹はテレビの愚かなショーを見ている。passu! >.>;

sigh. 私は再度言うために何も適当得なかった。LOL

Tags: japanese
Current Mood: sigh

should post more in LIVEJOURNAL ^^;

anyway... been watching BattleStar Galactica for some time now...
it was pretty inetresting... tough id prefer to watch more of the war side rather than their petty arguments between each other
^^"

anyway, the recent episodes are like >.>; whaaa
Stupid psycho Baltazar is president... and they settled in an unknown planet..a nd surrendered to the cylons in a year =.=;; everyhign started all over again =.=;

crap...

words cannot convey how annoyed i was >.>

anyway..

ive been lookign forward to watch Jigouko Shoujo.. ((first ep last night yay XD// 3 eps today woot!))

i love that show T__T i knew id love it.. gwaah and i recently heard from miyukiko that theres a live next month gwaaaah :heart:

and and theres a detective Conan LIVE YAY~! though im not too keen with the actors involve >.> oh well still XD
i wonder if Kaito Kid will be there too XD i doubt it though ^^;

Oh oh and halloween event on Gaia.. and Ro but me no have ro load T__T

And my mood is "anxious" why? cause my mom deosnt have a job anymore T__T (i dotn have a father) i need to find a job and fast ^^;
oh ji-chaaaan~ ^^;

Current Mood: anxious